I’d Rather Hold Myself (Sometimes) Songtext
von Superfan

I run at night two times a week
My right foot broke from anxiety
I ran this route when I was fifteen
I used to starve myself as a reason to breathe

On the same street 9/11/2020
I saw my first girlfriend then she hid from me
In the front seat of her best friend′s car
While I was smoking weed in a parking lot

Of an elementary school
I thought I'd get caught trying to be cool

I wish I was pretending
That′s why I build my walls so high
Excluding rejection from my life

If I just hold myself tonight
If I just hold myself tonight


I'd rather hold myself sometimes

After the first time I had sex
I cried myself to sleep in a loft bed
Still never kissed someone I'm in love with
I′d die happier if I was a virgin forever
Forever

I wish I was pretending
To wear my instincts like a disguise
It′s out of fear I recognize

If I just hold myself tonight
If I just hold myself tonight

I'd rather hold myself sometimes

I′d rather hold myself tonight
I'd just hold myself tonight
I′d rather hold myself tonight
Do you just hold yourself sometimes?