New Ancestors Songtext
von Rocky Rivera

Hey Mama it′s been, four long years
Since I held you in my arms
And now my last grandma is gone
I'm just happy you′re together
Izzy met her, then she sent her along
To be with you cause the pain was too strong
I brought my kids back to the Phil's with my sis
And maxed out my cards
Just so I could take your ashes back home
You blessed the garden with your flowers
And what a sweet gesture it is
They still bloom after you're gone


Ever since I was a young tender
The younger me remembers
That you taught me not to ever fear death
That fact that you, were my maker
Never take it for granted
You prepared me when to take my last breath
I swear I cried, enough tears to reach the Golden Gate Bridge
From the Island where my family stayed
I cried every single day since May 19th
Been years since you left and yet
The grief don′t go away

I can hear your voice in my heart
And I can see you in my mind
Every beautiful freckle that′s on your skin
Wish that I could, smell kiss your face
One last time
Until I see you again

I can't help but live in the past
And I want to get back to you
We can never go back
Yeah my heart is where I carry you
Only you

Pretty baby with the big brown eyes
Young girl but you still so wise
I promise that I′ll take good care of your mom
Now that you're gone
Sorry bout the way you felt inside


You were my son′s best friend
He hides it but he's dealing with the fact
That he knows he′ll never see you again
And so we cherish the moments
Growing up
How we filled each other's cup
Even with the pain the journey is worth it

We're all hurtin′
Except you
We give thanks to bless you
To show the love, that we wish we could still show
And if you ever thought about
Ever wonder
Ever doubt how much we loved you
I just thought you should know

I feel you in the whispering breeze
On a full Taurus moon
In the waves of an ocean of tears
I wish that we could say I love you once more
See you one last time
Just know we′re lucky
That you ever were here

I can't help but live in the past
And I want to get back to you
We can never go back
Yeah my heart is where I carry you
Only you

I hope you bring me Ghirardelli on my altar
Burn me a Nag Champa
A bouquet of roses in my honor
Play my songs in the car all alone
Crying when no one′s home
Cuz my raspy voice ain't rapping any longer

Take my tattooed skin
All the freckles from my mom
All my scars
Bind the pages of a journal with my stories
No matter what you
Do with my body
My spirit′s in my words
So remember when the tears start falling

Take all the Chevys, all the old schools
With the G-Bodies
Down Mission from DC to the Bridge
I don't want no one crying
I want us all together having fun
In this one precious life that we live

And after I′m gone
I'm with my Mama and she waiting for me
And I'ma do the same for my kids
Go ′head and live your life
Be happy
Be gracious
Be loving
I′ll be with all our ancestors

Running, running
Mascara keeps on running
If tears were shooting stars
Then comets fall without a warning
And I call but she ain't coming
I call but she ain′t waking
I think about the times she used to call
To say "I love you" but
I might have been too busy or
I didn't want to see her
So far away from me
I could not bear to not be with her
Now I meditate to see her
I call on my ancestors
Play ancient game of telephone
Until she get the message
See I′m, rappin just to hear her
I'm writing just to feel her
To cauterize the pain of open wound
And try to heal her from
The trauma of separation, post-colonial oppression
But I′m just her baby girl
And I have yet to learn my lessons
As a spirit that was giant
It's hard to follow suit
I'd never walk in shoes so big
They immigrate whole roots of
Family trees to other side
Beside the California surf
They walked so we could fly
Generation was the first
Thank You, Mama