A Portrait Of Songtext
von Sorority Noise

I've been feeling suicidal
And if I need remind you
It's not the coming of my heart and my brain
I was thinking about how great it would be
If I could make the tightness in my chest go away
It's been a while since I've seen God
And I'm not trying to lead him on
But he's always trying to fuck me
To the tune of my favorite song

And they're playing the '59 Sound in heaven
While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes
It's hard to freeze your anxieties
When your best friends' torching your coat
Your coat


Drop that phone drink a glass of water
And call me when you get in your bed
I've seen inside your head and I'm doing the surgery
On the parts that still wish you were dead
'Cause I've lost too many friends
So I'll say it again and again and again and again
And again and again and again and again

I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
I've still got your demons
And their not gonna be leaving any time

Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon

I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine


Since I was thirteen I've dealt with manic depression
And I had a difficult time comprehending the things
That I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life
And I was turning eighteen
And I was doing everything I could
To try to make myself feel better
But I felt an absence
I felt like I needed to die
I felt like nothing existed
And I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing
The same air as the ones I loveda nd my family
And then it came to the point
Where I started losing friends
Who had the same fucking ideas as myself
But I have to be strong and I have to live my life
As a continuation of theirs lost
And I have to do everything in my fucking power
To be the person that I can be
And live my life the best way I fucking can
And some days it's so hard to fucking stand
And fucking stand
And fucking stand
And fucking stand