i am not ok at all Songtext
von violet_dash

I am not ok at all
And i′m tired of lying to you 'bout it all
Cause everyday that passes by just hurts
And all this will come and bite me back later

To clarify what i said in the past
My mind is always in a back & forth with death and the past
And i guess what i′m really concerned about is with others
Because i don't talk about my problems cause i don't wanna be a bother

And the little voice that′s inside of my head says
Not to be edgy or anything, but
"I guess it doesn′t really matter what i do"
"Cause everything that i make will never have any appeal to you"

I am not ok at all
And i'm tired of lying to you bout it all
Cause everyday that passes by just hurts
And all this will come and bite me back later


To clarify what i′ll say in the future
Or maybe just to worry people less
I've applied to over 20 therapists
And none of them have ever called me back it′s all missed

Calls and i apologise about all my self destructive tendencies
And how every single thing that i say's self depricating
But this is the only way i can get all these thoughts out
Without doing something that i will be embarrassed about

My own voice it makes me sick
But i guess that that′s ok
Despite it demotivating me more than anything
Until then i apologise about my voice not fitting
I can't do anything against

I am not ok at all
And i'm tired of lying to you ′bout it all
Cause everyday that passes by just hurts
And all this will come and bite me back later

I am not ok at all
And i′m tired of lying to you bout it all
Cause everyday that passes by just hurts
And all this will come and bite me back later