I Didn’t Use To Songtext
von The Wrecks

I made a rule when I was 19
That for a year I wouldn′t lie
I didn't have a guilty conscience
So I made one over time
I thought for sure that was a process
That we all went through in life
I was embarrassed when I found out that it′s not

At 25, I watched a love I thought was real
Get up and go without a word
At worse, I rested on my laurels
At best, her morals were absurd
I saw our future like something I could
Program into one that she deserved

But I'm doing my best (oh-oh-oh)
Yeah, I'm doing my best
It′s all I have left


I think I was made wrong
I didn′t use to
I think I was made wrong
But I didn't use to
Am I staying too late?
Am I talking too much?
Was I better off before I knew whether I was?
I think I was made wrong
But I didn′t use to

I am capable
I stand six feet high
I hold records in sports
My range is four octaves wide
I am capable
Yeah, I can do it myself
Every note, every frame, every pixel, what else

I crochet in half double
I type moderately fast
I can parallel-park with my arms behind my back
Who's next? Let me at ′em
I don't care, I got all night
I am flawed, I′m a fraud
I am whatever you like


I want everything and nothing
I want silence
I want time
I want mansions
I want social housing
I want to provide
I want emotional stability
I want back my two best friends
I want a proper diagnosis
But I can't afford the test
I am doing my best

I think I was made wrong
I didn't use to
I think I was made wrong
But I didn′t use to
Am I staying too late?
Am I talking too much?
Was I better off before I knew whether I was?
I think I was made wrong
But I didn′t use to

Will I be this way forever?
Am I stuck with me?
They say it only gets better
I guess we'll have to see

I′m calling, I'm pleading, I′m begging for help
I'm starting to see it like everyone else
Am I selfish? Am I bitter? Am I self-involved?
Is it worse or is it better if I had known all along?
I′m calling, I'm pleading, I'm begging for help
I′m starting to see me like everyone else
I am human, I am worth more than what I provide
I′m starting to think maybe I like

That I was made wrong
I didn't use to
I think I was made wrong
But I didn′t use to
Am I staying too late?
Am I talking too much?
Was I better off before I knew whether I was?
I think I was made wrong
But I didn't use to