You May Ask Songtext
von The Square Egg

You may ask what I do for a living
I reply that I dream
Some would say I′m a musician
I tend to not think so
As I've only made about $8,300 in the past 15 years
That I′ve been doing this professionally
That hardly defines a living in this city that I call home

So you may ask what I do for fun and excitement
I guess I dream of living
Some would say that I go out and socialize or go to museums
Art festivals and so on
It's actually more fun and adventurous
For me to stroll down SW 8th Street
As a vegetarian looking for something that I can eat
That isn't flavored pork


So you may ask about my family and where I come from
I reply nowhere. I come from that time and space that are born of now
Some would say that I was born to a middle-class family
And raised in Fort Lauderdale
While receiving an average education
It′s actually more truthful to say that I ran away from home at age 17
And learned the finer points of survival from baseheads and hookers
While living in the mean streets of Hollywood, Florida
It′s not really that glamorous of a story

So you may ask what kinds of things I think about
When I'm having quiet time
You might expect me to say something grand
Or offer up some cosmic revelation about life
In truth
I tend to compare NBA stat sheets online for my favorite players
Like Tracy McGrady, Rasheed Wallace
I′m someone who sleeps a lot at times
As it's a way of escaping the depression that I feel
When I feel like I′m the only one who really cares

I make it a habit to not say that I'm a depressed musician
Who enjoys spending time alone doing the most trivial of activities
Because that just doesn′t seem romantic to someone
Who has fantasies of marrying someone
Who will sing to them during their every waking moments

It's true that I use words to paint colors and tell stories
But because I don't over romanticize my own life
I tend to think that it is not as colorful as what I write about


Now in no way do I attempt to be modest about my experiences
And the person that I am
I know that I am truly blessed by God
And God′s creations are wonderfully touching me at every turn
I just know that I bend like a tree and wilt like a flower
You might not be able to accept my writing
You certainly may not appreciate me when my pedals fall to the dirt
You made not understand me when I don′t blossom

So for that reason I'm suspicious of you
For that reason I keep you at bay
I keep you at bay because I′m learning to love myself
When I'm not at my best
I′m learning to love myself when I don't shine
I′m learning to love myself unconditionally
Now that's a love that you can't give to me at this time
Because you′re in love with a dream
An illusion
You are not in love with me the way that God is
I doubt you will ever be and I don′t begrudge you for that
I only ask that you take stock in the moments that we share
Have respect for the glances that we exchanged
That led to a smile and then a kiss
Honor the time that we exchanged
Remember the moment that you got carried away
And told me that you were in love

For you see
That moment is the source that you can draw from when you feel alone
When you feel as I do
When someone asks you the most pettiest of questions
What do you do for a living