Fear of Being Forever Lost Songtext
von Shadows of Paragon

Time has come for renewal
I urgently longed for an altered situation
I slowly came to my solitude
There is security in my insecurity
A painful stillness in silence appears
Long enough I have rested in the dark
Silently cradled all pain
Reached out my hand for kindness
But greeted rejection

Was I reaching for false hopes?
Was I waiting for human goodness?
Although all I had seen was human wickedness
Was I closing the door for approval?


Lying in the fear of being lost forever
And chose to slowly fade away
I swam towards the bottom of my sea of self-pity
Filled my lungs with deadly willfully
I swam deeper when someone tried to pull me up
Sacrificed myself in fear of drowning the one who cared
I longed for an altered situation
But human kindness I feared the most
I expected even more wickedness
God, I know that you were always there
Only your thoughtfulness kept me alive
During my darkest hour

Was I reaching for false hopes?
Was I waiting for human goodness?
Although all I had seen was human wickedness
Was I closing the door for approval?

Sometimes I wish you would have left me there
I knew that you offered life in abundance
But I searched in vain for indication
That only can come from the one who inflicted shame on me