idiot Songtext
von saoirse dream

Hey Mel, um
I just read your peach post, and got your texts last night
And I liked your peach post without reading the comments first
And I′m just checking to see if you're okay, um

I wish I fucking worked right
I wanna take walks on the westside
Without feeling like I might die
Static tearing out the night sky
I wish I fucking worked right
I wanna take walks on the westside
Without feeling like I might die
Static tearing out the night sky

I don′t wanna wake you
I don't wanna bother
I don't wanna fake it
It′s obvious I′m not her
Caught in my obsessions, or just being honest?
I'm a disappointment, say it′s not ironic


I get kinda scared to talk sometimes
Feel like I'm faking my whole life
And all the stupid shit that makes me cry
Thinking I should let it pass me by
Better people wrote all my best lines
And they′re out there living their best lives
I'm so caught up tryna make up lies
Out of people tryna have a good time

Sometimes I wonder if they hear me
I′m quiet but I feel like I'm screaming
See how long I can live without breathing
And if you get just right, I can push those feelings
Right down, forget about it
Go out, get fucked up, shouting
"I'm alive, for now, because I found a way to kill myself"

I don′t wanna wake you
I don′t wanna bother
I don't wanna fake it
It′s obvious I'm not her
Caught in my obsessions, or just being honest?
I′m a disappointment, say it's not ironic

I get kinda scared to talk sometimes
Cause I know I′m taking my own life
Why am I always so afraid to die
If it's not even the first time I've tried?


Face down, pavement, I′m not fuckin′ playing
Face down, pavement, I'm not fuckin′ playing
Face down, pavement, I'm not fuckin′ playing
Face down, pavement-

And, um, please call me