On My Own Songtext
von Problematic

Dear Lord, can you show me the way?
I′m feelin' pessimistic, and losin′ my faith
Every single night, I lay in bed, and I pray
Keep repeatin' my actions, yet expectin' a change

So toxic, think I need a get a grip, quick
Demolish, take control the cards, I′m dealt
Stop stallin′, sayin' that I′m okay, way too often
Nothin' but a lie, I′m obnoxious

I don't need a handout, I don′t want endorsements
You can save your two cents, I will never forfeit
Just sit back, let life take it's course and
I've been ridin′ solo, sorta like an orphan

Dopamine check for a minute, won′t last
Overthinkin' everything, dwellin′ on my past
Sittin' on the fence, and dealin′ with resentment
Alter ego takin' over, I don′t want that


Where you gonna turn, when nothin' else matters?
How you s'posed to love, when your heart so shattered?
Success leaves clues, I should probably try to fathom
Instead of fallin′ right back in the same patterns

I was traumatized, PTSD
Gimme time to myself, ′cause I really can't breathe
Still, I keep my head high, used to be naive
Let fear hold you back, then a victim you′ll be

They don't see the nightmares, they don′t hear the screams
Gotta get up, out this hole, down thirty feet deep
So close to the edge, givin' every ounce left
I′ve been trapped in a prison, but I'm holdin' them keys

Damn, ironic now, isn′t it?
Cynicism, all around, make better friends
Take your mind on a trip, like a Molly binge
Don′t comply with the script, it is evident

But, I've been on my way up, if I fall
It′s a long way down, oh-ooh-wo
Maybe, It's unfortunate that I′m lost
Where did I go wrong?


Fuckin' me up, mentally
And, I can′t find my sanity
Balance out the lows
I'm gettin' high, another frequency
People love to turn you so cold
I′m better on my own

Getting comfortable where I stand
Gotta take a leap of faith, God damn
Literally, I′m drifting, why am I so distant?
Pushin' you away wasn′t part of the plan

Regrets, regrets, creepin' up instantly
Intense, what′s next, searchin' for some inner peace
Demons lurking, will not get away from me
My fault, my fault, drainin′ all my energy

Takin' pride in what I do, but I'm slacking
Think by now, that you′d probably learn your lesson, Greg
Don′t ever question my ability, or passion
These voices, I can never really tame

Should turn the page, but I'm stuck on the same chapter
Oh Lord, please wash away my sins
So distracted on the wrong path, and
You don′t really wanna know where I've been

Ever feel like nobody understands you?
Ever feel like you really wanna runaway?
Something missin′ in your life, can't stand who
You′ve become, so you'd rather just hide the pain
Self loathing in doubt
Grab the blade, contemplate, then I blackout
Sitting on the floor, still trying to absorb
Pleasing everybody else, how I lost myself, that's real!

But, I′ve been on my way up, if I fall
It′s a long way down, oh-ooh-wo
Maybe, It's unfortunate that I′m lost
Where did I go wrong?

Fuckin' me up, mentally
And, I can′t find my sanity
Balance out the lows
I'm gettin′ high, another frequency
People love to turn you so cold
I'm better on my own