Year of the Horse Songtext
von Pacific Purgatory

It′s been a while since I last cried
I drown out the thoughts of suicide
With chemicals and lots of pills
I guess it's still cheaper than a hospital bill

But now I feel so numb and empty
I wouldn′t care if the world was ending
I have goals and Pacific Coast dreams
I also have low self-esteem

Socrates and the Apostles' Creed
And everything else that I've ever believed
Is it all a sham, is it all a lie?
I admit I′m afraid to die


Alone, alone
I don′t want to die alone
Alone, alone
I don't want to die on my own

I just wanna tour around the world
And matter the most to just one girl
But I don′t think that I ever will
Everything moves fast but I stand still

Now I am so numb and empty
I wouldn't care if the world was ending
I′ve got problems with no remedies
I've also got self-destructive tendencies

I′m a fucking loser and I don't talk to girls
And I've never had a teenage romance unfurl
I listen to The Beach Boys in the darkness of my room
And I make my own music in the hopes of getting you


With me, with me
In holy matrimony
With me, with me
I am so lonely