Horsefly Songtext
von Lauren O’Connell

A cry in the hinge of the gate to the yard
Of the house that we briefly pretended was ours
A flicker of light as the lavender waved
And I vowed to surrender but part of me stayed behind
And I wanted to tell you

An unknown perennial grazes the eaves
By the window where you got a horsefly to leave
I′d come up holding a rolled magazine
And you wordlessly bade me to vacate the scene
And I did as you asked


But I'm never who I′d prefer to be
It's like it never occurs to me
To let things go

A swirl in the wood of the bench by the curb
I sat solemn and sunburned and rendered inert
You found me there holding an ocean of need
And you wordlessly gave me permission to breathe
And I just started crying

And I wished I was not ashamed of it
Pinned down by the weight of it
Afraid that you'd be afraid of it
What I can′t let go