Dadebt Songtext
von Gavin Castleton

I don′t wanna disappointment you
I can't think of a fate with a darker twist
And I don′t know what my dad felt
When he held my little self in his arms like this

But I gotta believe, in that moment
Somehow his heart was just as open
Must've been opened

I don't know when it closed
But I know what it costs
And I paid that shit

I′m doing everything I can
Just to save you from paying for my retardations
The best thing I can do for you
Is clean the slate
Make a space for Wild blood,
An open sky
And rounded edges


I don′t wanna miss a moment
I wanna document every word and every feature
I'm trying to witness all this growing
I′m kinda jealous of your daycare teachers
But, well it's delicate dance (don′t I know it)
Don't wanna hold you back; just hold your hand
I love to hold your hand

And if I hold you just right
Maybe you could feel held your whole life

I′m doing everything I can
Just to save you from paying for my retardations
I've been so slow to smell my patterns
And taste the cost of all my faults and all my anger
My biggest hope for you, my son
Is just shelter from the traumas of my generation
The best thing I can do for you
Is clean the slate
Make a space for Wild blood,
An open sky
And rounded edges

I won't be perfect
Not quite the man that I wanted to be
But I′ll show you courage
Wearing my heart on my sleeve


I will always be curious about you
(I don′t wanna disappoint you)
And I'll always be singing your praise
(I don′t wanna disappoint you)
If you ever get sick of your father
(I don't wanna disappoint you)
I will be at your door just the same
(I can′t think of a fate with a darker twist)