i had my fun/back to the start Songtext
von Field Medic

I had my fun, ′til my fun turned into humiliation and a suicide scare
I try to lead with love, but I hurt everyone that gets close enough to show me that they care
I cry alone in my room or out back, with my finger down my throat
Expelling shame I can't bear

Every day, I say I′m done, 'til I see that setting sun
But tonight, I'm gonna fight white knuckle


I lost my passion and my looks, my stomach′s turning like a brook
I told my best friend I wanted to buy a gun
I don′t know how I wound up here, feels like I lost so many years
Spend all my time saying sorry to everyone

Sorry

I don't know how I wound up here
The smallest things brings me to tears
And once they′re gone, I am complеtely numb

I don't know how I wound up here
I resent the insight of life experience
All these lessons only bring me harm
All these battles only leave me scarred

Oh, how I long to go back to the start


Oh, how I long to go back to the start