Still Haven't Killed Myself Songtext
von Doodseskader

Open my casket and crawl out of my grave
Godly ambitions as I put on my chains
Mirror splits my face into a thousand fragments
Forgot what I even looked like
Guess I finally got demented
Days I wish I could forget everything I′ve ever seen
Days I miss the bottle because that was really me
Smoke my brain to a pulp
So I could cope with the pain
Med habit runs in the family so I ain't even ashamed

Spent my days climbing
Until I almost fell
Lessons I learned
And now I only trust myself
Drop after drop I kept giving and giving
Thought as long as I had songs to sing I could just keep on living


It′s been two years and I still haven't seen anyone
Four more months and I bet the fucking flock will come
And give me the same speech that they always do
About "day one friends" and how "we is crew"
But now I lost myself and you no longer know me
I cut my arm to shreds to make sure I'm not a phoney
Bars upon bars ain′t a prison that can hold me
Watch me peel back the skin and collect all of these trophies

Spent my days climbing
Until I almost fell
Lessons I learned
And now I only trust myself
Drop after drop I kept giving and giving
Thought as long as I had songs to sing I could just keep on living

Now I′mma do as I see fit
Cut out the cancer so I can fucking live
Thought it was always us and you was part of the clique
Fool I ain't never seen your face and you ain′t never done shit
Ask me how I live, beg me to forget
Said you was never fucking there and we don't do alternative facts

Devil give me strength so I can live with what they do to me
They claiming we is friends but I know all these suckers using me
Consider me a step up towards burning the fucking ladder
This is life or death and bet I chose the fucking latter


Noose around my neck
Ask me how I live
Talk about good intentions but all these fucks I couldn′t give
Said all you want is peace, but how can we let this rest
When I haven't slept in years and she′s still sitting on my chest
Little bitch